This is exactly how I felt during my orientation at my new gym.
I signed up a few days after Christmas and was introduced
to my personal trainer. Her name is Chris and she wasted
no time getting to the humiliation round. While she recorded
the bazillion inches that surround my thighs, tummy, arms,
and - worst of all - booty, I fought back tears. As this was going on,
I literally saw images of what had been comforting me for so long -
cheese, good wine, and anything that ends with "casserole".
Then I stepped on the scale.
What the What?!
I was convinced it was wrong.
By about 20 lbs.
I also filled out a questionnaire about eating habits and my
daily routine. Another shocker. I was consuming repetitive foods
(insert any of the comforts above) and a lot of empty calories.
My new job is also a culprit. I sit at my desk all day, only getting up
for meetings and the occasional jaunt to the copy machine.
At the ad agency, I ran around all the time so going from fairly
active during workdays to sitting on my rear for
8 hours 5 days a week hasn't been ideal.
But maybe the worst of it all was the last
question that Chris threw at me:
Why do you think you let this happen?
My answer:
Brutal side effects of infertility drugs combined
with frequent pity parties and laziness.
So we worked out a plan:
- I work out with Chris one day a week, alone 4 days a week
- 5 days of cardio
- 3 of those days I do the strength circuit she created
- follow my Weight Watchers plan & increase H2O intake
- stop feeling like a major failure
I also posted this helpful guide to my bathroom mirror
to serve as a morning reminder of my new rules.
I like lists and this one is easy to understand.
So far, I've lost 7 lbs though most of that is due to being so sick.
I'm finally on the mend which means I'm craving food again
so I don't expect another big drop!
I know over time I have whined posted about needing
to get fit and I've made several honest attempts to achieve my goal
and find happiness with myself. But nothing seems to stick.
I feel really motivated. I'll be "weighing in" on her blog on Friday's
and plan to do the same on here. While I'm not going to post my
goal weight, I do plan on reporting back with progress updates.
I'm not asking for cheerleaders but I do welcome healthy tips!
Happy Friday! I'm off to refill my water bucket.
64oz down, 64 to go!